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crashmarguliesI'm so fucking exhausted.
I wish I could explain how much energy it takes for me to interact briefly with my wife after hours of sleep. I'm sitting at my desk and I am two feet to the right of my bed and I know I should lie down but the idea of moving to the mattress feels so physically overwhelming I haven't done it yet. I'm not sure I could touch my head with my hands if you asked me.
I feel like I unloaded someone's u-haul but instead I slept all day. Luna Rose came to visit and I didn't even have her come in to say hi because I was so fuckign tired. i say "fuck" every time I say "tired" because to just say "tired" would be incorrect. Inaccurate. Incomplete.
Today I had to tell Dawn that I'm not sure if I'm afraid parts of my body are shutting down because I have an anxiety disorder that is free to spiral as I lie alone in the dark with limited stimulation; or if I'm afraid because it's true.
I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired.
I wish I could explain how much energy it takes for me to interact briefly with my wife after hours of sleep. I'm sitting at my desk and I am two feet to the right of my bed and I know I should lie down but the idea of moving to the mattress feels so physically overwhelming I haven't done it yet. I'm not sure I could touch my head with my hands if you asked me.
I feel like I unloaded someone's u-haul but instead I slept all day. Luna Rose came to visit and I didn't even have her come in to say hi because I was so fuckign tired. i say "fuck" every time I say "tired" because to just say "tired" would be incorrect. Inaccurate. Incomplete.
Today I had to tell Dawn that I'm not sure if I'm afraid parts of my body are shutting down because I have an anxiety disorder that is free to spiral as I lie alone in the dark with limited stimulation; or if I'm afraid because it's true.
I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired.
